Daily Archives: March 8, 2012
Posted by justme
Bacos are NOT a meat substitute!
This isn’t meant to be a joke. I’m dead serious. I went through a pretty significant amount of time in college believing this to be true. How did I get there? Oy-vey… where to begin?
I swear at one point in my life I was losing weight the “healthy, sensible” way. I was. As time went on, it almost became a game to keep losing- which meant that I had to find foods with the lowest amount of calories and fat (because you know, both are the devil… note: sarcasm).
With the independence of college came the ability to make all choices about what I put into my body; no longer did I have to eat sensible portions of the meals that the Mom had made featuring a healthy variety; so I figured out how to eat the BIGGEST volume of food with the LEAST amount of impact on my waistline. And, may I say… I was GOOD at it!
One of the first things I did when preparing college was buy a scale. I “needed” it to “keep me in check.” (I had self-imposed fear to stay at the weight I had worked so incredibly hard to attain.) I look back now: RED.FLAG.
I had my food patterns down to a “science.” Ooo- did I mention that I was eating COLDSTONE frequently and STILL losing weight?! Whenever people would call me out about getting “too skinny” I would throw that in their face.
Of course, that was only 1/2 the story.
If I was being truly honest with you, you’d know that I was only eating lettuce, Bacos (because I needed meat), and popcorn (because I could eat a lot for so little calories). The ice cream was my source of calcium. It all equalled a very “balanced” diet in my own mind. The best part, as I mentioned, was that I was still losing weight.
You see, for 2 years of my life, I let my happiness rest on
whether the scale went up or down.
I knew nothing else.
So… I was still ”winning.”
My friends and I laughed about it. They might’ve been legitimately concerned but unsure how to approach me on it, and I was totally on the defense, you know- “laugh with me, not at me.”
Food can be just as strong as a drug. It can make you do absolutely ridiculous things. Back than, I refused to look at something like the idea of using Bacos for a meat substitute as anything but unhealthy or a bit ridiculous.
It was total and udder denial.
For the first time, I’m willing to not only admit that I had these irrational thoughts, but agree that I was incorrect in my thinking. It wasn’t healthy.
I’m starting to discover the things in life that REALLY matter. Like my character, my family, my friends, my health… NOT a +/-1 pound on the scale between 7am and 3pm in a day. Or eating less calories than yesterday. Or exercising 1/2 hour longer than last time.
I know I’m not the only one who’s ever had these types of thoughts. You’re not crazy, stupid, odd, dumb, or anything else self-defeating for having them. You are just a little misinformed, and maybe a little scared (at least I was). You are also NOT trapped. And NOT alone.
Be brave and be honest with yourself and others.
You’re worth the truth.
And seriously, the truth WILL set you free!